i'm in fucking hell.....

shitzo...... i'm in a fucking pool of shit. i feel so aimless. and yah, blame my laziness. and argh... kill me! please do.

today, went to school, got a lecture from a lecturer. questioning why we are unable to finish projects on time. yah, blame me. i admit. i don give a shit. all i wanted is rest and peace. why not? yah, i've paid to learn. and shitz, why am i slacking all the way? i didnt want this. but hell, since i know, why still am i aimless? well, i never blame the lecturers if they didnt want to extend our deadline and fine. i deserve them. we were given the time to learn and discover, and damn me, why didnt i take the opportunity to learn and shitz? yes, everyone goes through hardship. and why the hell i cant? all the stress at work, all the problems and shitz. argh..... fuck me! i can never grow up. CB!!!!!! only if i could turn back the time. it's too late dear.... well, cool. all i pray for is mercy. MERCY MERCY MERCY! MIDI due this friday and hell, ADR due next friday... call me the FUCKING BUMER BITCH!!!!

hoping an overnight session will help... the deadline is this friday. this is all i can pray for too......

i'll pay for what i have done.... do i deserve this? i hate myself and i hate to admit for who i am.... take me with u angel...