Monday, February 21, 2011

Call me a Pathetic. I am one.

I vowed not to be pathetic. I broke my vow and I'm such a pathetic.

No vows. No hopes. I'm done.

Saturday, January 08, 2011

It's a funny thing about comin' home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you. -Benjamin Button-

Hello 2011! I'm not ready for you. I shall be ready shortly.
Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss. - Benjamin Button - 

I fell in love with the story of The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. The story touches the bottom of my heart and made me realize how pathetic I am. 

Based on the that movie, I'm making my resolution now:-

  • To go home every weekend.
  • Craft my career path.
  • Play a song without looking at piano sheet.
  • Quit drinking to sleep.
  • Party only once or twice a month only. 
  • Shop when necessary.
  • Scout for a HOME.
  • Spray my car.
  • Enough of frowning.
  • Workout everyweek. At least twice a week.
  • Count 1 to 10 before eruption. Manage anger.
  • Finish up "Dear Tom"
  • Pray more.
  • Contribute in an organization/charity.
  • Utilize organizer.
  • Sleep at least 7 hours a day.
  • Drink 8 glass of water a day.
  • Visit Jakarta for shopping. =p
  • Watch a movie once a week.
  • Memories a song once a week.
  • Greet 'Thank You' for anything that is grateful.
  • Apologise without reflecting any pride or ego.
  • Drink a glass of juice everyday.
  • Cook a meal once a month for the two of us.

And the list goes on....

What makes it so great about the movie is, how he lived his life with no fear.

Daisy: Would you still love me if I were old and saggy? 
Benjamin Button: Would you still love ME if I were young and had acne? When I'm afraid of what's under the bed? Or if I end up wetting the bed? 

Many times I asked the same question as Daisy, except that I add if I was fat. 

Many times I fear for the past experiences. Daisy gave light to me.

I promise you, I'll never lose myself to self-pity again. 
And I think, right there and then, she realized none of us is perfect forever. - Benjamin Button -

It's about time for me to drop the baggage and walk forward, fear no more. I have had enough of my confused identity. Enough of trying to create one. Enough of solving the puzzles and enough of figuring out the bits and pieces. 

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. - Benjamin Button -

Goodbye Edward. Goodbye Acmar. Goodbye Singapore. Goodbye Franco. Goodbye Sharon Chin 14 years old. Goodbye Sharon Chin 15 years old. Goodbye Sharon Chin 22 years old. Goodbye best friends. Goodbye Princess, Goodbye Bambi. Goodbye pride. Goodbye ego. Goodbye fear. Goodbye Puchong. Goodbye dreamland. Goodbye dreams.Goodbye sorrow.Goodbye Damansara Tropics.

You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go. - Benjamin Button - 

Some nights, I'd have to sleep alone. I didn't mind, I would listen to the house breathin'. All those people sleepin'. I felt... safe. - Benjamin Button -

It's funny how sometimes the people we remember the least make the greatest impression on us. - Benjamin Button -

I learnt so much for this 25 years. I treasure you all very much. Thank you for entering my life. I'm going to miss myself. =)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

It's been my dream

House at the cliff by the sea?

Every time I hear them say, "It's kinda nice.. I'm living at the cliff by the sea.. Come and visit us!"

Hell yeah. I don't want a visit. I wanna live there forever. Forever and EVER!!!

It's a dream come true home......

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Pool Dream

If I have a pool, I would love to have a pool like this...

But, I'll change the base colour of the pool to red. Make it a bloody pool.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

One hand clapping

Isn't it a waste to know 2010 is ending in half a month's time. =(

Bless me, I love this year. Best year in my entire life. and my wish is to end the year with a good bang.

Same old. You ain't sparing me any understanding.. Leave me hanging. Just once more, digest it, for the betterment. 

Friday, November 19, 2010


I shouldn't have done that. Should have just kept quiet and be patient.

I admit. I have a problem. I don't know how to cure this myself.

I am left alone for such long time. I hate this n I hate to admit I allow myself to do this. To aggravates u.

But hung on to me to wait. Is this going to be healthy?! Why I kept letting this happen over and over again?

One good lesson, there's a saying, taking it for granted.