Euphorically, agree...

I've reached some lights. 

I'm hungry. I'm thinking of porridge. *growling*

We're looking at watches and handbags. He was so interested in buying them but he doesn't know how to buy cos he's a computer dumb.

He chose this bag. I've just insulted him. I'm afraid I've just hurt his feelings.

He wanted to go sleep. I persuaded him. It was nice listening to him rambling. 

It's nice to hear you.. I'm gonna sleep now. Nitey baby...

I luv u..

Don't Let Me Dedicate This to Myself...

Time to listen to my head speak, cause my heart made me a fool

It ain't easy, it ain't gonna be easy.
I ain't screening.
I am not watching out.
I don't want to know.

Don't make a fool out of me.

A fool that I've never been.

Clock ticking for I don't know what time is it now, what day, what month and what year is it.
My clock stopped in my world. It's getting rusty I can't find a solution.

I might be your first fool, tell me why...

P.R.O.U.D.

Today, of this date...

I feel complete...

Minority + Majority = Contentment

Feeling proud ..... 

Gong Hei Fatt Choy!

Ah! How useless I am...

My bad for posting an emo entry and not wishing everyone Happy Chinese Niu Year!!!

My luck has gone this year. Not as disgusting as last year. How nice of my friends sponsored me my hair colouring and airfare last year.

This year seems to be less celebrative. We started late and I've got lazier to visit friends. I scrolled my phonebook and realised, where have all my contacts go.. Where have all my party friends, gambling friends, and yum cha friends? Saw their names, but pressing the icon 'Call' make it seems awkward. I think I'm rather lonely this year but I'm glad I've mend my broken pieces. Worth the trip to hug me lover when we went to sleep. 

I'm glad it's worth it. When I visited the Heng family, i feel the warmth. It's so homey. All of them sayang me like I'm their precious lil sister. The muscle I put in my smile did not hurt an inch even knowing how I hate to layan strangers myself. I'm all a happy lady!

Happy Moo Moo Year !! Hope the Moo Moos will not be affected badly!

YUM SENG TO THE DRUNKARDS AND GAMBLERS!

WHAT???

Oh gosh, we're hitting quarter of the century age already. WTF???

18th birthday just seemed to past 3 months ago. Never knew the operation was only 3 months ago. Disgusting!

Almost lost the hope of my life. Didn't regret for mending the broken pieces. I'm sure it's all gonna be better than before. Much much much better. Cos I'm ready and I have my plans drafted. 

I know for sure, I hate my current job. For all the problems and fun-less made me felt disgusted. I've planned, and plan to leave. As soon as I want to... as soon as I can, as soon as before the hatred grows into my brain. 

I've perfect vision now. I'm not used to seeing things clear before and after my sleep. Things seems to be blurry back then before fixing them. Now, it's a whole new mould.

Doctor said, I need to plan to settle down. I wish I can, but I don't know when. I'm not ready for this. But I'm so very afraid. I'm so very afraid I can't form any heartbeat. I'm so very afraid I can't at all...

I understand now, there are responsibilities waiting ahead me. It's so near and close to me now. Such a sudden 'tick tock' makes me think how useless I am... 

I have a dream.. I wish I would never wake up from that beautiful dream...

Hate to Love you

It was all so true...

I'm vocal-less, I'm heart-broken, I'm confused, I'm career-less, I've lost, but... I have what I have to perfect my life.

I have you. 

I have you to cover me with blanket to protect me from cold.

I have you to bring me water to fill the thirst.

I have you to bring me towel although it's just across the toilet.

I have you to feed me water when I'm sick.

I have you to bring the Nintendo DS over to kill boredom.

I have you to standby a jacket when I'm cold outside.

I have you to cheer me up with the little thing when I'm broke.

I have you to kiss me in the forehead and say the magic word before you go to sleep.

I have you to shoo the lizards and cockroach away because I fear of them.

How can I not HATE to love you?

Promises

Promise me that you'll hold my hand.

Promise me that you'll cuddle me in my sleep.

Promise me that you would not quit kissing my forehead before we put on your sleepy mode.

Promise me that no matter what you'll never turn your head.

Promise me that you will share your heart and mind.

Promise me that you'll share your ears.

Promise me that you would not stop caring.

Promise me that you will stop assuming.

Promise me that the time is occupied appropriately.

Promise me that you can make me remember all the occasions.

Promise me that you are truthful and be real.

Promise me that you promised to...

Promise me that you will always be by me....

Promise me, Pillow.