WHAT???

Oh gosh, we're hitting quarter of the century age already. WTF???

18th birthday just seemed to past 3 months ago. Never knew the operation was only 3 months ago. Disgusting!

Almost lost the hope of my life. Didn't regret for mending the broken pieces. I'm sure it's all gonna be better than before. Much much much better. Cos I'm ready and I have my plans drafted. 

I know for sure, I hate my current job. For all the problems and fun-less made me felt disgusted. I've planned, and plan to leave. As soon as I want to... as soon as I can, as soon as before the hatred grows into my brain. 

I've perfect vision now. I'm not used to seeing things clear before and after my sleep. Things seems to be blurry back then before fixing them. Now, it's a whole new mould.

Doctor said, I need to plan to settle down. I wish I can, but I don't know when. I'm not ready for this. But I'm so very afraid. I'm so very afraid I can't form any heartbeat. I'm so very afraid I can't at all...

I understand now, there are responsibilities waiting ahead me. It's so near and close to me now. Such a sudden 'tick tock' makes me think how useless I am... 

I have a dream.. I wish I would never wake up from that beautiful dream...