Stress

Days and days..... it's already a month since i started this job. everyday is like working. I even had nightmares over work. as in i dreamt the nite thru bout my work. I just dont know why. This is my first permanent job. I wonder, how long can I go.

Last week, my senior producer was terminated for certain reason. it freaked me out. I kept wondering, what has she gone wrong tat she had to be terminated? when my time will come? I wouldnt want this to happen. It puzzled me tat, who are my boss? they're freakily playing mind game with me. At times, they're nice, at times, they're monitoring, at times, you wouldnt know, their joke r real or.... it's for the sake of fun? i donno... tell me bout it...

Been having this backache and neckache and headache for a week already. nothing cures. my shoulder's damn stiff. it's exactly like the moment i feel self conscious. probably, i need some treatment soon to my neck. it's aching like shit and numbs like i feel my hair has grown that long to kacau my back.


I miss my piano. When will I have time again for my piano? now i have set my priority. priority changed. so, I hope, you dont complain... I love my job.... =(