Collide

i didnt know Collide was sang by Howie Day and he's damn cute. i'll melt if he wraps me around in his arm. it makes me think of the dim lights with sips of hoegarden listening to this song in Walas.

first day of going to fitness first. a personal trainer was there to teach us how to use the equipments. "What's your purpose going to gym centre?". i wanted to say, losing weight. the respond would be "lose wat?". haha, i think i always use the wrong phrase. so REPHRASE and said my aim was to tone up. right ya? staring at myself into the mirror i feel disgusted. like like.... a puke after alcohol with food. sickening! why the hell i cant say i'm fat?


I'm starting to feel farking no aim at all in life. not even a dream for the moment. no work, no studies, no life. Matthew was asking what am i going to do for my life? i said nothing. i cant commit to a job right now. that is why, i'm not looking for jobs yet. he gave me a path, asking me to join his event company. low pay, overload work. telling me it's adventerous and will fill my life with lots of experiences and obstacle solution. true eh, but, am i willing to forgo my loved ones, my family, friends and time? i donno, tell me pls. of cos in everything we do, there's pros and cons. but i'm not sure. have no faith in myself....