I'm Lost

i donno~~~ i feel very lost again!!! shit me please! shit me! i hate myself! sigh, i donno. been moody whole day. i cant stay at home whole day. i am restless. i need to go out. at least do something. spice my daily life. do anything. don care whether productive or not. still i need to. sigh. i'm so stuck. again and again. all alone. can never know what i want. no aims in life. i only have one hope, which is to get back to Malaysia and settle down and stay alone and stay away from everybody. guess i'm going insane soon without my own knowledge.. i donno..... i don even know what i wan........